jaded.

i think we feel it too often; that lack of interest in something or rather, that sense of dread that seems to creep up from behind you when you're about to do something the 100th time.

yes. we're jaded. we don't live like how we're supposed to go i guess. going with the flow, running through the routines like machines. well, some call it perfection while others call it plain stupidity. i think schools have taken the joy out of learning. everything is a "do-this-or-else-you-will-..."(replace ... with the following; i)be punished ii)fail your exams iii)both). and it's like how they don't want you to question them and they just keep telling you to take it as it is. yes, the whole chunk of it, without understanding it.

as a result, we just keep drowning ourselves in knowledge that we do not understand and that we have to keep regurgitating when required.

it is all pointless, because the aforementioned is simply not learning. and if it is learning at all, it would be good to note that it is a learning that we cannot appreciate and enjoy.

maybe all this can change,

so give me faith to finish the race.

'cos i believe the change should start with me.