christmas, as i have come to know it.

christmas is in 2 days time.
there is so much to do and as usual, so little time.
sometimes i ask myself, "why the hassle? jesus will always come again next year. and it's not as if we cannot wait till next year. besides, christmas is more of an evil marketing ploy than anything else." it's true, there's no doubting this. big advertisments that often feature anorexic models line orchard road like it's fashion week or something. prada, miu miu, LV and what have you. yeah, the light-up's not such a disaster this year. and tanglin mall(according to gabz's maid, has won the best christmas deco award again) is all glittery and colourful again. all the hype, all the glamour, all the lights, all done just to rake in bigger profits. year in, year out, same old, same old. getting boring, isn't it, this routine?

but that's when i realise that christmas can be more than i think it is.

sharing. love. concern. what happened to these?

i don't know whether you've felt it but here's what i think or rather, what i have noticed in recent years. surely you remember how it was like to have your phone vibrate every five minutes during the midnight mass. it was annoying at first, but now i realise that the feeling of being remembered is a nice feeling. but in recent years, i have been getting lesser messages, a drastic decrease, mind you, than i used to. the messages have become less original, often copied from some other dude that you don't even know at all. it's routine all over again. copy, paste, send. or sometimes, not at all. and people don't reply sometimes and i guess you could say that i'm a little annoyed with regards to this. sometimes i'm left to wonder, "why bother at all?"

but if no one bothered, then christmas wouldn't be christmas anymore, would it?
i'm trying to make this christmas a special one this year, but i don't know how.
hm, suggestions anyone?

note to self: get "have a little faith".