i am still searching.

searching for God is a funny thing; there is a constant temptation to let my faith slide into oblivion and not bother about searching anymore, but at the same time, there are times when i experience random and sporadic moments of great faith and longing; moments in which i feel i must find God in order to feel at peace with myself and the things around me. and as i write this little entry now, i wonder if anyone out there has had an experience like mine.

i'm not sure why i feel this, but to me, i guess it's a sign to tell me that i've been searching for God in all the wrong places and maybe, whatever i'm doing now isn't the way to go. maybe there is something i'm missing out, or something that i'm not doing right. i don't know. i feel more lost than ever and i don't think i really know what i'm doing anymore. is this all a mistake; should i stay on in this?

maybe i should stop thinking so much and get some sleep; it's been a long day anyway.