listening to happy songs.

we the kings - she takes me high.

liu yi fei/刘亦菲.

damn, she's pretty and talented(she's got a great voice and her acting's not bad).

quick look at myself.

army's given me a little bit of time to take a quick glance at myself;

attitudes and values, traits and characteristics, physical and mental strength.

well, one thing bugging me was this question that was put to me by one of my section mates, "have you been looking out for any nice girls? i mean, like, anyone in mind at the moment?"

okay. honestly, i don't think i'm ready. nice girls are aplenty, but it wouldn't help if i'm the root of the problem. i don't think i'm ready. i am immature and selfish. i don't know how to give and take. i am unreasonable. i am emotionally challenged, or rather, i would say that i have poor control over my emotions; they often get the better of me. i have poor discipline. i have no drive. i lack self-control. i am weak. such traits clearly show that i am not ready for a relationship; and clearly, i am undeserving of nice girl/lady until i get my act together.

i keep telling myself that i will keep giving my best, even if others don't. it isn't easy, especially when you're always giving. it makes you question, "why should i bother giving my best when others don't? why not be like them and give as little as i can; perhaps even the bare minimum?" but then i tell myself, "no, only my best. only my best." and i carry on on my journey, to find others like myself; on our search for perfection and success.

goodbye D4109(final).

i am happy to have passed out of BMTC 1 and must add that i am also proud of myself and my efforts at BMTC 1.

i) new PB for 2.4km(not very awesome, but it'll do for now).

ii) i kept to my own promise.

and being in Dragon Platoon 4, Section 1, was just plain awesome. cos you guys were just so damn cool(even though i solemnly swear that i would have killed my buddy a couple of times before POC if i could) and honestly speaking, i wouldn't want to be anywhere(section-wise) else. thanks for the great memories(and for sharing the awesome food and sweets with me and everyone else!). i really hope that we can really keep to the fortnightly plan(the makan meet-ups!) and all.

as i lay down to rest my weary body and soul,

i ask this of the Heavenly Father, "God, will You make me stronger?"

then i lay my right hand upon my heart, and make a silent promise to help myself, so that He can help me.

feels like it's raining inside my head(fourth).

well, i must say that yesterday was kinda weird. no, i wouldn't use the word weird. well, it was more awkward than weird. it's like how you're invited to party but the all guests don't know you, or can't recall who you are.

it's sad. really.

oh well, time to move on.

i swear this time i mean it(third).

just a lil' more to the end.

gotta make everyday count.

and i wanna sing at mass again.

sitting there and keeping mum ain't my style.

hope that i'll get back my voice soon.

hm, and smota's confi mass is next week.

nick vujicic.

go watch him speak at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gc4HGQHgeFE .
respect mann, respect.

do and give your best at all times. and should you fail, don't allow these disappointments to discourage you; instead, listen to that silent voice in your heart that says, "i will try again tomorrow."
(or words to that effect, cos i was too tired that day in the gym)

- Nor Rizan(Singapore's only pro boxer and Dragon Coy's Fitness Instructor)

second.

been feeling kinda disatisfied with how things are going in my platoon this week.
but it feels good to be back home, even if it's just for awhile.

on a random note, i can't decide on where to go for mass later in the evening.
suggestions, anyone?