think, thinking, thought.

as i slurp away at my just-out-of-the-pot Korean kimchi noodles(loaded with a whole packet of enoki mushrooms and sealed with the nutritional goodness of an egg), i cannot help but think about the events that one could sum up as collective noun known as today.

i do not, and will not, enjoy thinking about today.
as i'm saying this, i'll like to be very clear about the times when i do not enjoy a day.

the criterion is simple; i did not make the best out of it.

and after thinking about today, i go on thinking about the many other "todays" before today. it's a strange feeling; to have known you could have done something better at a particular moment, only after it has happened. it gives you the reassurance that should the same scenario play out again, you will know what to do this time round. but as fate would have it, the same scenarios never play out again, and life often deals you a tough hand.

and what do you do? what do I do?

nothing. i continue my existence as if nothing ever happened. yes, i know. you must be saying, "he really is an IDIOT." perhaps you could say you got yourself full marks for that.

i consider myself fortunate. to be able to slurp on Kimchi noodles while others have nothing to eat is a blessing.

i have a roof over my head. i am indeed lucky.
i have everything i need. i am very, very lucky.

am i grateful?
yes. but what do i do about it?

nothing.

now that i've thought about it, i realise that i really am an idiot.
maybe it's time to less of an idiot and perhaps, start working towards the future to fulfil the dreams in my head and the hopes that others have for me.

on a random note, my noodles are cold and my soup is non-existent.
but i am still very lucky.